redfox's Blog
Hello new me
August 28, 2008It feels like, today is my first day alive..
It is morning now.. i do nott have to open my eyes to know that. i can hear birds, and can see the sun with my unopen eyes.. I can feel it, its some thing new. i now feel power flow in my vains, not just blood. i open my eyes, and see my only friend... sambra is stairing at me with her beautfull red eyes. she knows i am not the same person, and does not know what to do. i get out of bed and go to the bathroom, leaving her in my room alone. I stare at my reflection. Just by looking you can see i am different. my eyes are more wild.. i no longer look at someone, but stair right threw them. my mind has been opened to more consciousness than i ever thought possible. I have lost my mortality, and sents of uslessness. I can now see pain, sorrow, and missory are only things to give you somthing to do. to wast time. we are all aniamls, and because of this dont need thes emotions. i could not totaly get rid of these emotions, i could only overpower them with others. Hate is my new joy, anger is my new sorrow... I make the most wicked face i can make, then chuckel knowing i would have scared my old self... i am no longer weak. i am no longer scared. I AM NOW AN AVERNGER! no longer will i be walked on, even by the people i have helped. Fear me wold, just as i used to fear you.... i know see friends are only illusions, not something to try and help. i now see friends only as close enemies, and people that can be used to my will.. this world that has caused me so much pain, will soon receve the same thing only two fold. i no longer have weaknessess. i am no longer going to take the blame for other people's mistackes, for i am now filled with scape-goats and alibys. he he he. i look at my body, ripe with muscle that took me mouths to make. now i can see they were usles to me without the mind i have now.... this is my world now, and i will finily get the chance for revenge. he he he. this is my world now, and i will finily get the chance to be happy....