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My eyes maybe alive... but i am dead

August 28, 2008

If only we were all dead, and lived like zombies

Iv been invited... I have decided... Ive been sliced in... Again!!

Fly to the light... Fly to the light... My mind tells me not to, but my body wants me to. It needs me... Heh-Heh-Heh... My sweet sweet body, My only company. I thank you for giving me a home, and you will be repaid.

I dont do drugs... such things, i dont have a need for. I constantly give you tests... such events in this world, i will always be ready. I give you the name animal... such is all living things, i am nearly one. I give you the name elit... such is what all living things should be, i have trained both you and my mind.

Why is it so hard to live.... life.. I am easly surviving this world, and yet i have died more times than i can count. Why am i alive, when i feel dead?... I have tryed to be like you.... I look at you now. My living flesh, what is your secret? You feel pain, and yet you lack the pain of emotion... I envy you, and wish i could be more like you... Its my conshisness, my personality, my mortality that stops me.. Why is there any need for thought? You offer us a world of peace.. a world with out religion, race, discrimination, and harassment... And yet we are so quick to turn that away. We could all be zombies and focuse only on living, but we think that would be boring so we focuse on caring...... My body.. You are the only thing in this world i would fight for, and yet you will not do the same for me... If someone looks at you, or does you wrong, they will recive the same pain two fold...... Yet..... Every time some one takes my breath away. Every time my heart is broken. Every time my friends stab me.... You do nuthing, as i am killed by..... Emotions!..... Yes! Emotions!... A pice of matter capable of movement, is a sitting duck when it comes to a figment of the imagination.... So what do we do? You sleep.. I ecscape this world useing OBE, but you stay.. You stay and breath the breath of life, and you live. You dont need me, but i need you..... I need you for my REVENGE!! Heh-Heh-Heh.... Fly to the light... Fly to the light.. My mind tells me to, and my body wants me to. I need me... So, the endless fable starts over.

Iv been invited... I have decided... Iv been sliced in... Again!!

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      Posted 1 month ago by mYbaByCriSS

      Ever thought about being a writer?? You are quite awsome...Very talented ! You are very DEEP....and I think I can almost feel your pain.....Awsome job !

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      Believe In Criss Angel i do,,,I love u criss!
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      Posted 2 months ago by crissangellover23

      idk but u would not like them. i would ask Traci but he passed away over the summer the one on the right did. So thats that i really miss him.

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      Believe In Criss Angel i do,,,I love u criss!
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      Posted 2 months ago by crissangellover23

      idk but u would not like them. i would ask Traci but he passed away over the summer the one on the right did. So thats that i really miss him.

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      Posted 2 months ago by KreativeLoyal

      im not grossed out by anything anymore,im not scared of the things that would creep people out usually, but strangley i fear death and to speak to someone cuz i fear rejection... we cant help what we feel, cuz we just feel it. we dont know how emotions got there, they're just there... they've been there forever, and will always be there until global warming and polution make our earth explode, the earth, our home, and yet i dont know why i brought polution into this... strange, isn't it?

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      Posted 2 months ago by SAskeptic

      emotions used to tear me apart but then one day i realized i dont feel. sure misery and melancoly can always be present but i dont have emotional attachment. Its free and liberating but distant. It isnt all its worked up to be. Maybe feeling is a part of being human we were all meant to experience. Just dont fall into the comfort of indifference too long otherwise you stay trapted in it by its safety. being able to see what everyone else has sometimes just makes you regret that current state.

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      Posted 2 months ago by StrongWill

      Ohhhhhhh, Emotions are so important in life, don't you see? Without emotions we would only be corpses and would walk about and do nothing, no interests, no adventures, no living life to the fullest. We should enjoy emotions and Learn to cope with them the best we can no matter the pain, you know if you need somebody to really talk to one day, you got me.

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      Posted 3 months ago by Chalice

      Lol!!! First of all, I was trying to be sarcastic about the "mentally ill aka retarded." I shoulda put a smiley face er somethin.... Second, if you don't love Criss, then why are you a loyal? And third...thankss???

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      Posted 3 months ago by Chalice

      Thanks, ...I'm a Taurus, too. !! =D

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      i can see you are a great writer and have a great talent

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      Posted 3 months ago by Miss_Missi

      This Body is just a shell for our souls ! You're right , we need it but it doesn't need us, Our soul that is ! when the soul is a rest , not using the eyes to entertain it's self, the body just keeps right on goin'!
      I'm so glad that my body is not my final resting place ! My soul is my true me not this body that I live in ! I just try not to let my emotions effect my soul ! Deep Dude !